The end, or the beginning, is finally in sight! My doctors are telling me that if I can make it to 34 weeks, they will probably go ahead and take these boys. That's crazy because that is only a week and a half away! The longest they would make me go is to the 20th of February, but that is still right around the corner.
It is so amazing to me how quickly this pregnancy has gone by. So many times, when I was sick, tired, feeling huge or any number of things, I would find myself wishing away the time until the boys were here. But now that it is upon me, I find myself feeling sad that it is almost over. I pray that I don't do the same thing as these boys grow up. I know there are times that I will think I am losing my mind, but I just need to remember how I feel now and how ridiculously fast the time goes by.
Last night was the first time I really felt like a mother to these boys and it was an amazing feeling. I couldn't sleep, as usual, but not for the typical reasons. The boys almost always seem to go to sleep when I lay down at night. But for some reason, they thought there was some kind of party going on. They kept me awake for hours kicking, punching and pretty much driving me crazy. I finally got out of bed and went to the rocker in the hall. After rocking for just a little bit, they calmed right down and let me sleep. It was just unbelievable to me that I could have that kind of impact on them while they are still inside of me. It made all of this seem very REAL.
What a joy we have as women to experience all of this. We are blessed.